A Prelude to the Journey

I have always been told that I am an interesting person.

I have lived in many places and done many things. However, I have always put the goals and aspirations of others ahead of my own, because I wanted the people I loved to be happy and successful. I neglected my own goals and happiness in the name of this quest.

Last year, I realized a lifelong dream and went overseas to university. I had a longterm boyfriend who messed me around quite a bit at the time, and I recently discovered that he had badly used me.

I am writing this, angry and hurt, a day after having found out about it. I am thinking about how much I gave up for him while I ensured that he was secure and stable, on the path to a great career. To think that I may have given up my graduate degree to come back to this - I am horrified! I have always been skilled in helping others realize their dreams. So I am starting this blog to realize mine, because I feel that it is my turn now.

On August 27th I will be returning to the country I left earlier this summer. That was the date that I left last year, and it was the most awful year of my life. Therefore, I am committed to making this one the best...for myself, and no one else.

365 days. Several goals. Focusing on myself.

My dance instructor wisely told me, 'the right guy just fits into your life without changing it'. So I am going to make myself a life, and any interested guys will just have to fit into it.

MY GOALS:

Losing 60 pounds, or the fitness equivalent. I enjoy martial arts and dance, so I like a muscular physique, and that will be the real goal.

Acquiring fulltime, flexible, gainful employment that pays at least $80, 000 or its equivalent.

Getting out of debt.

Acquiring a *real home* of my own (not necessarily a house, but a place where I feel like I belong, and is *mine alone*), with some land around it, that allows pets, and acquiring one.

Organizing and presenting my dance business properly, and becoming successful in it.

Becoming *healthy*, quitting smoking, limiting drinking.

Eventually getting into university for my PhD.

Publishing my books.

Finding a caring, supportive group of friends.

I don't expect to achieve every single one of these goals to its end by the end of the year, only to focus on my dreams, and hopefully take the steps necessary to arrive at them.

At this time, while I am still upset, I was told 'Don't quit before the miracle'. I am publicly announcing my intention not to quit. This blog will hopefully keep me accountable.

If you like, you can join me in your own dreamquest, and follow this blog.

August 27th...it begins.